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A home of his own Sung Man-man
When I first met Sung Man-man seven years ago, he was living alone in Sham Shui Po, in a 40 sq ft wood-partitioned cubicle reeking of sweat. Every day he sat there watching television, his eyes glued to the screen, and almost always had a cigarette in his right hand. When spoken to, he liked to say, â€œDunnoâ€.
When we met again seven years later, Man-man has changed. He has gained some weight, and has become more talkative and cheerful â€“ thanks to a better living environment. Since 2010, he has been living in a public housing unit. Finally having a home of his own feels great, he says. â€œNow I donâ€™t have to fight for use of the toilet â€“ itâ€™s fantastic.â€
He still watches television, though heâ€™s spending less time on it. â€œThe drama shows are not as entertaining now. Thereâ€™s no creativity, always the same old story.â€ Not only is he watching less TV, heâ€™s also smoking less. â€œNot too long ago I had gastroenteritis, and before that I had surgery for gastric ulcer. I was quite sick. It made me realise I really would die if I kept smoking like this.â€
Seven years ago, Man-man told me he ate a meal a day to save money. The lack of a proper diet isn't the only reason for his stomach troubles. In the past he suffered bouts of depression that led him to attempt suicide. Twice he tried to kill himself by taking more than 100 sleeping pills, and twice he survived. As it turned out, he did have a relapse. One day in August last year, he felt so down that he swallowed 240 sleeping pills. As he was losing consciousness, he made a phone call to a pastor he knew. When he woke up, he found himself in Caritas Medical Centre. Then, he thought about sleeping in his own flat, which was actually a hundred times more comfortable than sleeping in a hospital. â€œI still think about suicide sometimes, but much less frequently than in the past,â€ he says.
In the seven years between our meetings, Man-man â€“ who is now 43 â€“ has made little change to his pace of life. In these seven years, food and other necessities have become more expensive. Man-man collects a social welfare of over HK$4,000. â€œItâ€™s enough,â€ he says. â€œAt least I have a flat.â€
With the flat, he has some space of his own. â€œI have a friend of over 10 years who has no family and is queuing for a public flat. We met when I was living in the subdivided flat. He sleeps over at my flat sometimes, along with his two-year-old dog Bobby. They keep me company.â€ â€œIâ€™m not gay, OK; weâ€™re just friends.â€ Thanks to this friend, his flat feels more like a home, he says.
â€œNow even the security guards downstairs ask after me, and remind me to take care of myself and eat well. The chairman of the residential committee here also treats me like a godson, often inviting me for tea and chat.â€
In his quieter moments, Man-man would sometimes remember two people he knew from his cubicle days. One died of an illness at 28, and the other, in his 40s, jumped to his death. Man-man, too, had wanted to die. But after all that he has been through, he has managed to make something of a home for himself. Perhaps, life isn't so bad.